Take Heed

I'm not the greatest, I'm not the least, but I'm a soldier and I'm fighting to save my soul.

As everything stems from thoughts,Be careful how you think,Be aware of emotions,They penetrate the heart and soul affecting our decisions and actions.

I have my gifts, but I'm nothing special, I have faith. Targeted by demons and satan himself, I ask for The Saviour's mercy, I ask Him to fill me with His Grace and for my soul to be calm. Full with love and compassion He makes the steps to Heaven attainable, for with God nothing is impossible. 

Under attack I pray from my heart, with as much humility as I can. Humility is the key, It's the only thing satan can never have. With humility you cannot be touched by evil. You cannot be swayed.satan will always tempt you and the closer you are to God, the harder his attacks become. But with prayer from the heart and humility he will never win. 

One must understand that Jesus Christ is doing everything to save you. The onslaughts, the obstacles, the trauma, it's all to shape our soul, it's all for our life, to be made humble and to attain the Heavenly Kingdom.

Take heed and have courage. You can have victory. You know what you must do. Do it.

Glory to God, The Almighty!

A matter of life or death

When cracks appear and you break it's what you needed for your own good. 

Then on the path to recovery you make a decision, either be good and get stronger or be evil and become weaker. The good path says I'm going to better myself with humility, the evil path says I'm going to get even via revenge on those to blame and on those innocent, because evil feels terrible and empty, and prideful and is destructive to others and to the self. 

When good and evil collide, good hurts through the aggressive intent of evil, but the strength and experience gained by good enables them to pull through. Whereas there is no healing for evil, it's corrupt and bitter, and remains corrupt and bitter until a day and that day may never come, when a truly GENUINE sorry is uttered. Though this is rare, it's possible and it's life changing. 

So you see, good has the power. 

Good has the warmth of heart and ability to transform. 

When cracks appear thank God, He's trying to heal you and save you. Accept His hand, it's a matter of life or death.

Dear Narcissist

Do not talk to me or pretend to be my friend ever again as you are clearly vengeful and vindictive, and jealous. You're a gossip, a rumour spreader and not only overbearing but smothering too. You are irresponsible and calculating, you need to take responsibility for what you think, say and do. Do not play any mind games with me, directly or indirectly. If you say sorry to me, you do not mean it. Play your games with someone else, who doesn't know any better. You put on a friendly demeanor to everyone, so you can get away with things and manipulate people and situations. 

Do not approach me or where I live ever, as I will take the necessary action to prevent this. 

You are obviously very disturbed and want me to think this is all in my mind, well, I'm not a child, I've experienced people like you before, you're extremely traumatized and put your trauma on others, I will not be another one of your games. It's over, end of.

Pain

Pain is a killer,

It's sharp, it cuts and it tortures.

But pain humbles,

Pain brings patience,

Pain brings prayer and peace,

Pain brings the ungodly close to God.

It takes the arrogant down and lifts the spirit up,

It makes one think of meaning and ask questions,

And it gives all the answers too.

It's because of love, we lose our worldly will and come close to the Holy,

To fight it you struggle, 

To accept it you gain much,

To overcome it is Grace,

To learn from it shows wisdom,

From pain we gain more than we lose,

And when it finally ends there is only joy, ease and

a grateful heart. 

Men of these days

There was a time in history when men were told you're weak if you cry, 

You're weak if you express your happiness and delight in art and nature,

You're weak if you are mentally "unwell"

You're weak if you refuse to fight in war and kill,

You're weak if you refuse to be aggressive in any way, shape or form. 

Today?

I see strength as being true to yourself and not backing down,

I see strength as goodness and standing up for yourself,

I see strength as being honest and genuine, and truthful and kind.

Shedding a tear is not weak!

Fore Alexander the Great himself back in the day wept as he had no more land to conquer! Can you imagine!

I weep when I feel joy in my heart.

When my daughter was born I wept.

When my brother came through near death to live his life I wept.

Knowing my mother is safe and healthy I weep.

You ask what does "man" mean?

Man means Andreas!

Look it up!

Man means courage!

Look it up!

So when you see me or any man, shoulders hunched, head bowed, don't judge, but ask yourself, what's in the heart of this man?

I've taken it off

A man is not a label, 

He is not defined by the drug he takes,

By the names he is called,

By the insults he receives,

By the reactions of others to him.

To be given the label of freak,

Because your father is a freak, 

Because your brother is a freak,

Because you cracked and became a freak yourself, 

To be given that label is no longer a burden, no longer a trap or a reason to point the finger and say this man is insane.

That label I was given from birth because of my father,

Because of my brother,

Because of me,

Was a driving force and will remain a driving force, 

and now from this day it has become a lit furnace, a furnace with undying flickering and piercing flames.

Yeah, I took the drug,

To calm my mind,

I was given no other option,

But now this fire burns on its own,

Without stimulant,

Without a chemical reaction,

But only with the determination a man has within his mind and within his very being, within the entirety of what he has. 

I came out from a dark place into a dark place all those years ago,

That was the seed,

Not money,

Not glory,

Not fame,

But to endeavour, to persevere, to understand.

Now my eyes see broad what that young fellow I was did back then,

Full of emotion he ignited an unrelenting flame that grew stronger day after day after day,

So that now I hold the brightest of lights in my grasp

And I've taken off that old label,

As when you are in the midst of any suffering you are not weak, that's a fallacy,

You feel exhausted, exasperated and devastated, but that, that is the crux of strength,

To not fold, but to get through and overcome,

So that you can replace that insane label with the label of strength. 

A Spiritual Force

A Spiritual Force 

Space, time and matter were made by God, as it is written in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 

He exists outside the vastness of space, time and matter, but is also present everywhere and filling all things. 

He's made up of three Godheads who are one in essence, the Father the invisible one, the Son the mediating physical body of the Father, and the Spirit preceding from the father and descending upon the Son. The only way we can know the invisible Father is through his son Jesus Christ who walked the earth with us, and we can only know Christ through the Spirit that descends upon Him and us. 

As He's outside the confines of the matter of our brains, the molecules of our brain and therefore our body cannot be trusted in any way to know how we ourselves were formed if we are merely randomly made molecular structures from billions of years of evolution. 

How can we trust our own thoughts and theories, how can mere matter create such emotions as love, anger, jealousy, hatred, envy, determination, faith and so on, and how can we know and trust these feelings if we are merely molecular structures?

Gas, liquid and solid which make up matter cannot make itself if in the beginning there was nothing. It doesn't have the capacity or capability to create itself, it requires something outside it to create it.

Our brains can never understand the workings and complexities of God, if I understood fully the greatness I would not worship Him. He is above and beyond my understanding.

It is with a spiritual force that only a true loving, all powerful God has can help guide us to see and know the truth of creation and life, and the right way to live and to exist.