In times of pain

In times of pain,

In times when you feel weary and low, 

When you ask yourself why? Why me?

You ask yourself why are people like that?

What did I do wrong?

You felt the brutality and intimidation of life and you feel yourself slipping, you feel angry and weak. You feel negativity is taking over your mind and you feel like giving up.

Then, you experience a gentleness...

You see a friendly face,

You hear a voice of encouragement,

You read a kind word,

You feel a strong and powerful presence and you feel comforted that you're not alone,

That others are with you and understand you, and care for you...

It is in these dark times when you must dig your deepest, not to get lower or closer to your grave, but to fight for your life and rise again. To rise again wiser and to rise again stronger.

It is in these times, in these challenging times when we are made, when we show who we are and we fight and we keep fighting with every sinew of strength until we feel at peace again.

You will get there, because you have it in you to get there! and you will feel at peace again!

Persist

People knock you and you punch through a brick wall.

Darkness surrounds you, you're feeling fear, vultures encircle.

You're in the Lions Den, scared and weak, 

There's talk and rumor,

relief couldn't come sooner.

You hope and pray for that day when you're carried and begin your climb, sailing past the far off distant winning line.

The dark mist covers your mind, your body feels inferior,

The weight is heavy, your shoulders collapse,

The journey is extreme, but it is the journey that gives you your strength.

You carried the Globe on your back, now you're kicking the ball to your goal. 

You run with zest and determination, things still fly at you, but you've risen to the task, 

You slip the negative and remain elevated,

The bullets bounce off and you persist, still motivated.

There's always a way,

Bring on the challenge, bring on the fight, 

you're stronger than you think when your back is gotten, you're never forgotten.

The power of the two words,

The power of I AM,

REMEMBER...

when I am weak, then I AM strong. 

This is courage, this is resistance, with this you're an inspiration..

Your affirmation must be greater than yourself!

Then anything is possible!

Persist.

Take Heed

I'm not the greatest, I'm not the least, but I'm a soldier and I'm fighting to save my soul.

As everything stems from thoughts,Be careful how you think,Be aware of emotions,They penetrate the heart and soul affecting our decisions and actions.

I have my gifts, but I'm nothing special, I have faith. Targeted by demons and satan himself, I ask for The Saviour's mercy, I ask Him to fill me with His Grace and for my soul to be calm. Full with love and compassion He makes the steps to Heaven attainable, for with God nothing is impossible. 

Under attack I pray from my heart, with as much humility as I can. Humility is the key, It's the only thing satan can never have. With humility you cannot be touched by evil. You cannot be swayed.satan will always tempt you and the closer you are to God, the harder his attacks become. But with prayer from the heart and humility he will never win. 

One must understand that Jesus Christ is doing everything to save you. The onslaughts, the obstacles, the trauma, it's all to shape our soul, it's all for our life, to be made humble and to attain the Heavenly Kingdom.

Take heed and have courage. You can have victory. You know what you must do. Do it.

Glory to God, The Almighty!

A matter of life or death

When cracks appear and you break it's what you needed for your own good. 

Then on the path to recovery you make a decision, either be good and get stronger or be evil and become weaker. The good path says I'm going to better myself with humility, the evil path says I'm going to get even via revenge on those to blame and on those innocent, because evil feels terrible and empty, and prideful and is destructive to others and to the self. 

When good and evil collide, good hurts through the aggressive intent of evil, but the strength and experience gained by good enables them to pull through. Whereas there is no healing for evil, it's corrupt and bitter, and remains corrupt and bitter until a day and that day may never come, when a truly GENUINE sorry is uttered. Though this is rare, it's possible and it's life changing. 

So you see, good has the power. 

Good has the warmth of heart and ability to transform. 

When cracks appear thank God, He's trying to heal you and save you. Accept His hand, it's a matter of life or death.

Dear Narcissist

Do not talk to me or pretend to be my friend ever again as you are clearly vengeful and vindictive, and jealous. You're a gossip, a rumour spreader and not only overbearing but smothering too. You are irresponsible and calculating, you need to take responsibility for what you think, say and do. Do not play any mind games with me, directly or indirectly. If you say sorry to me, you do not mean it. Play your games with someone else, who doesn't know any better. You put on a friendly demeanor to everyone, so you can get away with things and manipulate people and situations. 

Do not approach me or where I live ever, as I will take the necessary action to prevent this. 

You are obviously very disturbed and want me to think this is all in my mind, well, I'm not a child, I've experienced people like you before, you're extremely traumatized and put your trauma on others, I will not be another one of your games. It's over, end of.

Pain

Pain is a killer,

It's sharp, it cuts and it tortures.

But pain humbles,

Pain brings patience,

Pain brings prayer and peace,

Pain brings the ungodly close to God.

It takes the arrogant down and lifts the spirit up,

It makes one think of meaning and ask questions,

And it gives all the answers too.

It's because of love, we lose our worldly will and come close to the Holy,

To fight it you struggle, 

To accept it you gain much,

To overcome it is Grace,

To learn from it shows wisdom,

From pain we gain more than we lose,

And when it finally ends there is only joy, ease and

a grateful heart. 

Men of these days

There was a time in history when men were told you're weak if you cry, 

You're weak if you express your happiness and delight in art and nature,

You're weak if you are mentally "unwell"

You're weak if you refuse to fight in war and kill,

You're weak if you refuse to be aggressive in any way, shape or form. 

Today?

I see strength as being true to yourself and not backing down,

I see strength as goodness and standing up for yourself,

I see strength as being honest and genuine, and truthful and kind.

Shedding a tear is not weak!

Fore Alexander the Great himself back in the day wept as he had no more land to conquer! Can you imagine!

I weep when I feel joy in my heart.

When my daughter was born I wept.

When my brother came through near death to live his life I wept.

Knowing my mother is safe and healthy I weep.

You ask what does "man" mean?

Man means Andreas!

Look it up!

Man means courage!

Look it up!

So when you see me or any man, shoulders hunched, head bowed, don't judge, but ask yourself, what's in the heart of this man?