In times of pain

In times of pain,

In times when you feel weary and low, 

When you ask yourself why? Why me?

You ask yourself why are people like that?

What did I do wrong?

You felt the brutality and intimidation of life and you feel yourself slipping, you feel angry and weak. You feel negativity is taking over your mind and you feel like giving up.

Then, you experience a gentleness...

You see a friendly face,

You hear a voice of encouragement,

You read a kind word,

You feel a strong and powerful presence and you feel comforted that you're not alone,

That others are with you and understand you, and care for you...

It is in these dark times when you must dig your deepest, not to get lower or closer to your grave, but to fight for your life and rise again. To rise again wiser and to rise again stronger.

It is in these times, in these challenging times when we are made, when we show who we are and we fight and we keep fighting with every sinew of strength until we feel at peace again.

You will get there, because you have it in you to get there! and you will feel at peace again!

Persist

People knock you and you punch through a brick wall.

Darkness surrounds you, you're feeling fear, vultures encircle.

You're in the Lions Den, scared and weak, 

There's talk and rumor,

relief couldn't come sooner.

You hope and pray for that day when you're carried and begin your climb, sailing past the far off distant winning line.

The dark mist covers your mind, your body feels inferior,

The weight is heavy, your shoulders collapse,

The journey is extreme, but it is the journey that gives you your strength.

You carried the Globe on your back, now you're kicking the ball to your goal. 

You run with zest and determination, things still fly at you, but you've risen to the task, 

You slip the negative and remain elevated,

The bullets bounce off and you persist, still motivated.

There's always a way,

Bring on the challenge, bring on the fight, 

you're stronger than you think when your back is gotten, you're never forgotten.

The power of the two words,

The power of I AM,

REMEMBER...

when I am weak, then I AM strong. 

This is courage, this is resistance, with this you're an inspiration..

Your affirmation must be greater than yourself!

Then anything is possible!

Persist.

Take Heed

I'm not the greatest, I'm not the least, but I'm a soldier and I'm fighting to save my soul.

As everything stems from thoughts,Be careful how you think,Be aware of emotions,They penetrate the heart and soul affecting our decisions and actions.

I have my gifts, but I'm nothing special, I have faith. Targeted by demons and satan himself, I ask for The Saviour's mercy, I ask Him to fill me with His Grace and for my soul to be calm. Full with love and compassion He makes the steps to Heaven attainable, for with God nothing is impossible. 

Under attack I pray from my heart, with as much humility as I can. Humility is the key, It's the only thing satan can never have. With humility you cannot be touched by evil. You cannot be swayed.satan will always tempt you and the closer you are to God, the harder his attacks become. But with prayer from the heart and humility he will never win. 

One must understand that Jesus Christ is doing everything to save you. The onslaughts, the obstacles, the trauma, it's all to shape our soul, it's all for our life, to be made humble and to attain the Heavenly Kingdom.

Take heed and have courage. You can have victory. You know what you must do. Do it.

Glory to God, The Almighty!

A matter of life or death

When cracks appear and you break it's what you needed for your own good. 

Then on the path to recovery you make a decision, either be good and get stronger or be evil and become weaker. The good path says I'm going to better myself with humility, the evil path says I'm going to get even via revenge on those to blame and on those innocent, because evil feels terrible and empty, and prideful and is destructive to others and to the self. 

When good and evil collide, good hurts through the aggressive intent of evil, but the strength and experience gained by good enables them to pull through. Whereas there is no healing for evil, it's corrupt and bitter, and remains corrupt and bitter until a day and that day may never come, when a truly GENUINE sorry is uttered. Though this is rare, it's possible and it's life changing. 

So you see, good has the power. 

Good has the warmth of heart and ability to transform. 

When cracks appear thank God, He's trying to heal you and save you. Accept His hand, it's a matter of life or death.

Dear Narcissist

Do not talk to me or pretend to be my friend ever again as you are clearly vengeful and vindictive, and jealous. You're a gossip, a rumour spreader and not only overbearing but smothering too. You are irresponsible and calculating, you need to take responsibility for what you think, say and do. Do not play any mind games with me, directly or indirectly. If you say sorry to me, you do not mean it. Play your games with someone else, who doesn't know any better. You put on a friendly demeanor to everyone, so you can get away with things and manipulate people and situations. 

Do not approach me or where I live ever, as I will take the necessary action to prevent this. 

You are obviously very disturbed and want me to think this is all in my mind, well, I'm not a child, I've experienced people like you before, you're extremely traumatized and put your trauma on others, I will not be another one of your games. It's over, end of.

Pain

Pain is a killer,

It's sharp, it cuts and it tortures.

But pain humbles,

Pain brings patience,

Pain brings prayer and peace,

Pain brings the ungodly close to God.

It takes the arrogant down and lifts the spirit up,

It makes one think of meaning and ask questions,

And it gives all the answers too.

It's because of love, we lose our worldly will and come close to the Holy,

To fight it you struggle, 

To accept it you gain much,

To overcome it is Grace,

To learn from it shows wisdom,

From pain we gain more than we lose,

And when it finally ends there is only joy, ease and

a grateful heart. 

Men of these days

There was a time in history when men were told you're weak if you cry, 

You're weak if you express your happiness and delight in art and nature,

You're weak if you are mentally "unwell"

You're weak if you refuse to fight in war and kill,

You're weak if you refuse to be aggressive in any way, shape or form. 

Today?

I see strength as being true to yourself and not backing down,

I see strength as goodness and standing up for yourself,

I see strength as being honest and genuine, and truthful and kind.

Shedding a tear is not weak!

Fore Alexander the Great himself back in the day wept as he had no more land to conquer! Can you imagine!

I weep when I feel joy in my heart.

When my daughter was born I wept.

When my brother came through near death to live his life I wept.

Knowing my mother is safe and healthy I weep.

You ask what does "man" mean?

Man means Andreas!

Look it up!

Man means courage!

Look it up!

So when you see me or any man, shoulders hunched, head bowed, don't judge, but ask yourself, what's in the heart of this man?

I've taken it off

A man is not a label, 

He is not defined by the drug he takes,

By the names he is called,

By the insults he receives,

By the reactions of others to him.

To be given the label of freak,

Because your father is a freak, 

Because your brother is a freak,

Because you cracked and became a freak yourself, 

To be given that label is no longer a burden, no longer a trap or a reason to point the finger and say this man is insane.

That label I was given from birth because of my father,

Because of my brother,

Because of me,

Was a driving force and will remain a driving force, 

and now from this day it has become a lit furnace, a furnace with undying flickering and piercing flames.

Yeah, I took the drug,

To calm my mind,

I was given no other option,

But now this fire burns on its own,

Without stimulant,

Without a chemical reaction,

But only with the determination a man has within his mind and within his very being, within the entirety of what he has. 

I came out from a dark place into a dark place all those years ago,

That was the seed,

Not money,

Not glory,

Not fame,

But to endeavour, to persevere, to understand.

Now my eyes see broad what that young fellow I was did back then,

Full of emotion he ignited an unrelenting flame that grew stronger day after day after day,

So that now I hold the brightest of lights in my grasp

And I've taken off that old label,

As when you are in the midst of any suffering you are not weak, that's a fallacy,

You feel exhausted, exasperated and devastated, but that, that is the crux of strength,

To not fold, but to get through and overcome,

So that you can replace that insane label with the label of strength. 

A Spiritual Force

A Spiritual Force 

Space, time and matter were made by God, as it is written in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 

He exists outside the vastness of space, time and matter, but is also present everywhere and filling all things. 

He's made up of three Godheads who are one in essence, the Father the invisible one, the Son the mediating physical body of the Father, and the Spirit preceding from the father and descending upon the Son. The only way we can know the invisible Father is through his son Jesus Christ who walked the earth with us, and we can only know Christ through the Spirit that descends upon Him and us. 

As He's outside the confines of the matter of our brains, the molecules of our brain and therefore our body cannot be trusted in any way to know how we ourselves were formed if we are merely randomly made molecular structures from billions of years of evolution. 

How can we trust our own thoughts and theories, how can mere matter create such emotions as love, anger, jealousy, hatred, envy, determination, faith and so on, and how can we know and trust these feelings if we are merely molecular structures?

Gas, liquid and solid which make up matter cannot make itself if in the beginning there was nothing. It doesn't have the capacity or capability to create itself, it requires something outside it to create it.

Our brains can never understand the workings and complexities of God, if I understood fully the greatness I would not worship Him. He is above and beyond my understanding.

It is with a spiritual force that only a true loving, all powerful God has can help guide us to see and know the truth of creation and life, and the right way to live and to exist.

Perfect love is perfection itself

Challenge the state of affairs, whatever they may be, 

but let hate feed hate, 

I'll feel the love and the power!

Challenge the masses, why not! 

Relinquish your chains and

Never be afraid of being outnumbered. 

Be Daniel in the Lion's Den, 

Let your heart chime like Big Ben and

when your faith is unbreakable,

You will become unshakeable. 

Create within you a clean spirit, 

So you don't rely on people, 

But, they will listen, 

And become closer to miracles. 

Calm your spirit, calm your internal self, your blood, organs, muscles, skin and bone, 

Feel no animosity for your self or others, 

But don't be nice, be GOOD, stand your ground and accept only positivity. 

Positivity is electricity to the soul and a golden key which opens the door to unique realms. 

There's hope for us all,

Revolutionise your heart,

Like Saul became Paul,

He who is blinded by the light will see the light. 

Defiantly be happy and courageous,

Fore bold is gold,

If you're strong be gentle, 

If you excell be humble,

If you carry great intellect show faith,

As nobody stands alone, nobody is a monolith, nobody is perfect apart from those perfected by perfection itself! 

I refuse

I refuse to become bitter, 

My faith will never fade, 

I refuse to grow old, 

The child will never die, 

I refuse to give up, 

I will strive on and on, and on. 

I will whistle my tune and sing a song, crack a joke and laugh from the heart. 

I will be silly and crazy, and weird, 

But never stale and old, or wicked and cold. 

I will be bold and boisterous, kind and keen, not timid and flat, or vicious and mean.

I refuse.

I will always be inquisitive and want to learn more,

I will always be spritely and alert, whether in the body or heart,

I will not fade, even if it seems that way. 

I will look out the window and be mesmerised by what I see,

The treasures here and there, the beauty to be behold, the life that is everywhere, the life that I mould.

We cannot control everything, but we can think how we want, the mind moulds our existence, what we think is what we become, the point is love, joy and fascination, though life is not always fun. 

Life can rip into our souls, tear us apart, but we fix all the pieces back together and begin a fresh start. 

We renew and regenerate, adapt and change, but the core that inner child remains. 

I refuse. 

I will play games and be innocent, not kill in war. 

I will fight many battles, but not hurt others.

I will show compassion, not twist a complex tale, 

I will state the truth gently, not put you under a magical spell. 

Imagine a ripe fruit, a pomegranate or such, or an ancient gift, an elixir, but you don't share and you don't care, and you grow old and tired, and alone. 

Imagine the opposite, the transformation that would occur, if you share life and live with hope, your youth would remain, time wouldn't exist, you'd never be torn apart, but just peace and love would be.

I refuse. 

People or Truth?

People or Truth? I asked myself a long time ago. 

I chose the Truth. 

Deception or Light? 

I chose the Light,

I knew from the beginning that I was right. 

In my garden I saw flowers and all life, I knew beauty was given out of joy, out of love, not by nothing, but from the beautiful God above. 

I lost alot of people,

Because I won't be fooled, 

Because I know the Truth,

Because I saw the Light. 

Yes people, I know the Truth, it's a treasure to behold when your life is in the palm of loves hand, and your not a puppet playing in the dark deceptors band. 

From an innocent child I knew there was something outside my mind, something bigger, something stronger, something that gave life meaning, 

All these emotions don't just disappear after death, 

We want to live and we're given life, 

Life goes on after the last breath, 

There's a point to existence, 

A reason to live, 

A reason we have a heart to give, 

Love is the reason why life continues, why Roses blossom year after year, why Caterpillars change to Butterflies, why death isn't the victor and Angels pull us up time after time, why we fight to go on and cry at fairwells, it goes on, do not fear and do not worry, every cry of sorry is heard, every breath is known, every life is precious, we are not just skin and bone, we have a soul, though we miss the mark, we wake up and start anew, a new day is a new life given from above and this metamorphosis is seen in the Resurrection of God and all who know and love. 

When Love, Truth and Faith commune, 

This is the bond that will resume, 

It goes on forever, do not worry, do not stress, even when your life's a mess, 

He picks up the pieces, 

Like a loving jigsaw maker, 

He who made the Universe, 

Puts our lives piece by piece, with timing of perfection back together with such loving affection and gives us guidance and direction. 

It's not blind faith, 

The proof is there for all to see, 

Back then I thought and hoped, but now I know. 

Do not let your experience make you bitter and far away from hope, 

As every darkness will disappear up in smoke, 

And through the smoke will appear a brilliant Light unlike any other, 

And only then will you know.